I don’t think I’ve ever sat & looked deeply at where I am & what I need to focus on in my life in this current moment. Usually, I just go with the flow… I don’t even know where to start, but I’ll go a little bit backwards.
I’m done high school, but I’m not enrolled in any post-secondary schooling nor do I think I ever will be. It feels like I’ve skipped over an important part in a person’s life but, at the same time, I’m okay with that. I’m okay with not living a life that’s scheduled to the societal norm. I’ve always felt like I’ve moved fast in anything I do, like I’ve already reached & experienced things in my life that my friends, or others my age, haven’t even considered yet. I don’t mind that at all. I don’t mind being fast-paced. With everyone I know being occupied with school, I’ve been able to spend a lot of time alone. Being alone forced me to tune into my inner self & really listen & connect with ME. This has opened my ideas to a world I knew existed but never understood. At first, I felt so isolated and lonely but then I began to understand that, within this painful situation, there’s good to be learned from it. Everything happens for a reason & I’ve begun to understand & agree with this statement more & more.
A few months ago, I started reading a book called The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. When I first started reading it, I had to put it down every 5 minutes just to process what the hell I was reading… It was blowing my mind & made me look at life in a whole new way. It took me a long time to finish his book so I only just finished it & am now on to another book of his called A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose. It’s equally great.
Getting to the present moment… I find myself constantly keeping in mind to accept what is and release resistance to any “negative” events in order to create an inner peace. I’m trying to remember that resistance causes pain. I need to put more focus in bringing full presence into my thoughts & emotions. Whenever I feel myself overwhelmed with emotion, I forget (or can’t find the strength) to become the watcher of my thoughts & emotions. I forget to just let them Be. Hearing the advice of letting things Be as they are influenced me the most & really created a change within me. The biggest struggle I find myself having is finding the strength to put all of this into action when I fall into those moments where I feel like I have none. So I guess the question is…
When I’m lacking in strength, what do I do to keep this advice alive?
NEXT STEPS: Remind myself that within every bad situation, there is good. Find that “good” & focus on it. Let that “good” provide me with the strength & energy to become the watcher of my thoughts & emotions.
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